February 11, 2003
am I alive or dead
Time is something that we cannot touch - it is not a thing. In math time is often represented as change. Objectively speaking, what is time? Outside of consciousness does time exist? What about this notion of future and past?
All we can perceive is this 'now.' Everything in our consciousness dealing with future or the past has a ghost-like quality of unreality. Even the photographs we look at seem to only be the remains of something that once existed.
On the same vein, someday there will be no future for you. After death, you will have no brain-centered consciousness to sense even a now moment. We think of time in concrete terms; however, we in every objective sense cannot ever know truly what time is. Try to separate time from consciousness. You cannot. Every single thing or idea you can utter or even vaguely imagine is somehow hinged upon ones subjective perception (even this one that I am currently writing). All we can do with our intellect is point a metaphoric finger at an objective truth.
So the question I put forth is: if all that we have and all that we will ever have is now, am I alive or dead? Could it be that I am already dead and being born at the same time? That there is an unfolding and an awaking that is spring forth from eternity for each being.